Alena says that I am turning into one annoying creature, that I've been, when I came here. She's totally right about me - I am nervous. For these several days I've managed to forget all my problems, concerning workability, finding a job, university studies and money, and now...I feel very scared about all these. Planning my way home, I realized, that I am afraid to be responsible for my own life, because I simply do not know, what to do with it. All these frightened questions are returning now to my mind and there is no help from the outside world. Because I am responsible, I am 18, for God sake!
All I know now - I must return home immediately. I can't rest, while my life is going to insanity, concerning the question "what to do".